A Cup of Tea With Me

No, not at the house. I still need to do that. LOL! However, after several interesting events, I was able to log on and clean up my side bar and links. I am sorry it took so long.

Hello! I know I have been gone for a while. Too long, really. I have a lot of “cleaning up” to do on my side bar.

Where have I been? Well, many of you know that I started working. I was temping at TAMU, and it was the perfect job. I loved it. I loved the people that I worked with. But the key word there is temp. The job was shorter than first thought, and when it was over, I started slipping into depression.

Between temp assignments, I started playing World of Warcraft again. I started out fine, timing my playing and assuring that I would not slip back into my addiction. I knew it was wrong, but I could not help it, I wanted to play.

I got another temp position, that I will not say where it was, as it was a VERY negative experience. Those that had to listen to me while I was there know all the details. All I will say is that my direct supervisor needed to work on his social skills. However, many of the people that I worked with there were wonderful, and I was able to find a little sunshine there, every day, even if it had to fight to come through the clouds.

I got called in to TAMU for an interview for a department that works closely to the department in which I had temped. 2 weeks after the interview, I learned that I had the job! So, I am at TAMU, permanently, in the Admissions Processing area. I just love it there. Things are really looking up.

I made the decision to close Faith Filled Wives. My life is not consistent enough to work at that ministry. I may reopen it some day. I am keeping the domain name, but the hosting is gone.

I realized that WoW had become an idol in my life, and I quit playing again, cold turkey. It is hard, and it is a battle every day, but I will resist.

I talked to God, asked Him to forgive me. I know he did. When I was pouring out my heart and soul to Him, asking for forgiveness,  I heard my theme song from Jeremy Camp in my mind. I know that God was the one reminding me of the song. He will always take us back, no matter how far we go, He WILL take us back. Once His child, always his child.

After recieving God’s forgiveness, the dreams started. I cannot post about them, but just know that I am in a very really demonic battle, and I know it is because I have let go of my strongholds, and the enemy will not give up easily. For days, I was afraid to sleep, even after praying, I did not let go of the fear. Last night, after prayer, I just kept saying outloud, “The Lord is my Shepard. He will lead me, I will follow Him. I will never be far from his side. God is by my side, and I am at His. He will protect me from all evil. God is my Shepard, my Saviour, my Salvation. He is all I need.” I repeated that until I fell asleep and when I woke up in the middle of the night, I repeated it again until I fell back asleep.

God will help me overcome it all.

My brother, rededicated his life to Christ, and was filled with the Holy Spirit in a wonderful way. I love how when He makes His home in you know, you feel it from the tip of your toes to the top of your head. It is amazing to hear someone you love describe that sensation to you. It reminds you of how you first felt.

Anyway, when it is slow at work, I can be on the internet, so I will be cleaning this place up, and working on posting more regularly.

I have no real reason for my hiding, other than I was dealing with internal and eternal issues, and I was dealing with them in my own, not so effective way.