Bittersweet Day
I am so torn. I am happy and I want to lock myself in the bathroom and cry my eyes out.
My oldest turns 16 today. He has his first truck, he gets his license this morning, and he starts his job on Thursday.
The job is nice, it is not far from mine, but yet far enough that I cannot be an over bearing mom and go in and check on him every five minutes. The other job he wanted was right next door and I think that would have been bad. I think I would be more worried about what was going on with him than what is happening at my work. Yep, I am one of those moms. 
Oh, and loose on the streets… He starts driving in earnest today. Driving without his dad, or myself, in the car. On his own.
No more driving him around. No more giving him movie money. It is all over.
Please pray for my peace with this, and please pray for his safety as he spreads his wings, just a little bit, and his wisdom that he continues to make wise choices. Thank you!
October 9th, 2007 at 5:43 am
Oh! Don’t check up on him! when I had my first job my mum came in everyday to check on me. It was…well, a tad embarassing! Though everyone at work understands. Haha.
He’ll be alright, don’t worry.
Besides, you’ll love the ‘no more movie money’ part once you get used to it. =D
October 9th, 2007 at 5:59 am
Hi, Gloria! Thank you for stopping by. I will try, really hard, not to check up on him. Like I said, that is one of the reason I am glad he got the job that he got, and not the job right next to me. LOL!
October 9th, 2007 at 2:30 pm
Awh, Melly I have no idea what this must feel like, but I know that the older they get the harder it gets because with every milestone they become less dependent on you and more independent.
I will be praying for you and for your son. What a blessing to be his mom for 16 whole years!
October 10th, 2007 at 11:22 am
Awh Melly…I totally understand. Though thankfully, I haven’t had to deal with the driving yet. I have been going through a lot of this lately. They are so geared up to be independent of us. They’re all about their friends, girls, cars, etc.
I keep thinking, “Have I taught him enough?”, “Does he know what to do if…”, but I’ve come to this conclusion, it’s kind of like planning a major life event, you do all you can, and make all the proper arrangements, but you always forget something.
We’ve instilled the basic values, ideas, rules and laws in them, but we’ve surely forgotten something! This is where God comes in. He doesn’t expect us to remember it all. He expects us to trust Him. After all, He loves these kids more than we can even fathom!
Hang in there sweetie! Concentrate on the positives and trust God to deal with the negatives – He’s got broad shoulders! (((((hugs)))))
October 11th, 2007 at 9:30 am
I remember feeling the same feeling when my son turned 16. My son is now 18 and attending college. Its really hard letting them go. But remember God will continue to watch over them. You gotta put them in God’s hand everyday and pray the blood over them for their safety. It will get easier to handle. I have been there where you are.
I wish you peace.
October 15th, 2007 at 7:08 am
(((hug for you))) My oldest is 10 right now and I am already not looking forward to the 16th birthday … it’s bad enough I get the “look” if I try to hug him at the bus stop! LOL
October 16th, 2007 at 10:44 am
This is my first time on your blog and I just had to comment on this post..I too pray each and everyday for my 17 year old son to make wise choices. I know how you feel, my son is the daring one of the group…so he’s on my mind at all times when he’s away from me. It’s so hard to let them spread their wings, but it’s something we must do. I have to say..I think I pray equally as hard for myself to have the strength to let him go. I will be praying for you and your son as well.